not mine

why must you do this to me you step in, even if you know you’re gonna leave i am not yours,  and you are not mine to keep    Artwork by Giovanni Esposito Illustration

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he loves me, he loves me not are you really into me or not? you come, then you go i don’t wanna go with your flow i am not just an episode i deserve to be someone’s full show Photo from Artidote

dead-end

funny how we last held each other as if it wasn’t ever gonna happen again i was right though; our bodies and minds reached a dead-end. Photo from Artidote

songs

i act like i don’t care but i still catch myself listening to the songs you showed me, dissecting each line and every word, as if you’re still there.   Photos from Artidote

time it

that one week, when you’d always reach out and want to meet those seven days, when you would make a way and call every day those forty-nine hours, when you spoke of words made up of flowers those two thousand and nine hundred forty minutes, next time– i’ll watch the clock tick, and time it.

first and last

you did it oh so well. your face looked like heaven, but your eyes screamed hell. then during that night, we both lost sight i didn’t have anywhere to go and you let your demons take control you told me you loved me so fast and i told you i would miss you, ’cause i……

love

love, it’s so addicting i can’t get enough of the feeling even if it would just last for a few days i would replay in my head, all of their ways even if it’s all half-meant even if my body’s just for rent even if i’m not the one oh, it’s so hard to run.……

stays

i am a hypocrite i always say that it’s all about mindset but even i can’t shoo away this sadness no matter what i do, no matter what i say it’s always there and i can’t seem to hide it sometimes i can tuck it away but really, it’s the only thing that ever stays……

first heartbreak

i can’t believe i met you when i wasn’t ready it was good, it was steady- and no, i’m not falling for your memory, just recalling how you loved me- after all this time, you’re the only guy who ever loved me right and i don’t know why it took so long for me to……

attack

oh god, why is he so magnetic? i can’t have him, but that’s what makes me want to have it i used to never even notice him before until somebody showed me a glimpse, by opening the door   you just started showing up one day, and one day became every day; it’s like you……